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Monday, April 30, 2012

Suara Anak Malaysia - Betapa kita sebenarnya memang bersatu


... Pada ketika ini, seorang pemuda Melayu yang kurus, berbaju belang hitam-kuning, memakai cermin mata, dengan beg merah, dan bekas air berwarna kuning - melangkah ke depan dengan perlahan-lahan.  Beliau duduk pada jarak lima meter di depan FRU.  Beliau mengangkat tangannya yang sedang menggenggam.   Beliau duduk senyap di situ.  Genggaman itu bukan untuk protes.  Saya yang berada di belakangnya nampak dengan jelas, posisinya itu membawa makna bahawa beliau sedang menunggu polis untuk menggarinya.


Beliau memilih untuk tidak menentang ketika berdepan dengan kekerasan FRU.  Beliau berseorangan di situ untuk beberapa minit.  Ada orang yang menjerit, "Cepat bawa dia balik, jangan biar dia ditangkap!"  Tiga orang kawan Melayu dengan cepat membimbingnya untuk balik ke kelompok manusia.  Beliau tidak meronta, beliau menurut saja.


Apabila beliau lalu di sisi saya, saya nampak betapa sedih wajahnya.  Saya tidak faham, mengapa wajah seseorang pemuda yang seharusnya bersemangat, sarat dengan kepiluan sedemikian.  Mungkin anda anggap saya menghasut sentimen jika saya berkata sedemikian.  Namun, benar dalam otak saya muncul sekeping gambar yang pernah saya tatapi, gambar seorang rakyat berdiri di depan kereta kebal untuk menghalang kemaraannya di Tianan Men, China, pada tahun 1989.
Tidak hilang kawal
... Walaupun telah diserang beberapa kali dengan gas pemedih mata, namun kelompok manusia tidak hilang kawal.  Saya ternampak beberapa orang pemuda Melayu berlari ke kedai di tepi jalan dan mengetuk pintu besinya dengan kuat.  Tingkahlakunya dibalas dengan ratusan orang yang mengherdiknya, "Jangan, jangan buat kerosakan, cepat tengok siapakah mereka! "


Saya tidak pasti beberapa orang pemuda itu sekadar mahu melepaskan geram, atau dihantar pihak lain untuk sabotaj.  Tapi apa yang saya pasti, anda gagal membuat kecoh dalam kelompok manusia yang begitu tinggi disiplinnya.


Saya ternampak juga ada yang melontarkan satu botol air mineral dari perhentian bas Pudu Raya, menghala ke arah FRU.  Dan ratusan orang yang berada di depan terus menghentikannya.  Seorang pakcik Cina berulang kali menjerit, "Jangan lawan mereka, mereka terima arahan, mereka cuma jalankan tugas saja, kita semua rakyat Malaysia, jangan, jangan lawan."


Tiada bendera yang dibakar, tiada harta awam yang dicerobohi.  Tiada kedai yang dihancurkan, tiada pintu atau tingkap kaca yang dipecahkan.  Apa yang ada hanyalah laungan slogan dan duduk secara aman.  Namun kita dilabel sebagai "perusuh".  Apakah "keganasan" kami?  Saya masih tertanya-tanya sehingga hari ini.


Kerana "aman" itu janji kami


Ratusan anggota polis memasuki kelompok "musuh" yang mempunyai puluhan ribu orang, dan polis pulang dengan tangkapannya yang berjaya.  Apakah kamu rasa kamu ni berani dan tangkas?  Kamu berjaya keluar dari kelompok kami tanpa dicederakan - ini kerana kami memilih untuk tidak berkasar.  Apabila tiga atau empat orang daripada kamu bersama membuli seorang peserta, tahukah kamu bahawa ratusan pasang mata yang sedang memandang, dan ratusan pasang buku lima yang sedang menggenggam di belakang kamu?


Kami tidak berkasar kerana kami patuh kepada janji kami untuk berhimpun secara aman.  Melihat prestasi kamu tempoh hari, semua rakyat tertanya-tanya, mengapa kamu sering terlambat apabila berlaku rompakan atau kes pencurian, dan apabila berdepan dengan rakyat jelata yang tidak bersenjata, kamu seolah-olah menelan pil berwarna biru itu, berkobar-kobar semangat, malah boleh menawan kelompok manusia 10 ribu orang?  Apakah kami ini senang dibuli?


Bukankah tugas FRU adalah untuk menyuraikan orang ramai?  Jadi mengapa pula menyekat jalan di Bukit Bintang apabila peserta perhimpunan diusir ke Jalan Pudu?  Di kawasan berdekatan perhentian bas Pudu Raya, lorong di tepi jalan dipagari tiang besi kira-kira lima kaki tingginya.  FRU melepaskan gas pemedih mata bertubi-tubi.  Peserta mencari perlindungan di Hospital Tung Shin kerana ia adalah satu-satunya jalan keluar yang utama.  Tak malukah wahai Menteri mengecam peserta kerana menggangu hospital?
"Kali pertama bayar cukai"


Saya mengikut orang ramai untuk berehat di kawasan rumpun di depan hospital.  Hujan mula turun.  Mungkin langit juga tidak merestui tindakan mereka, mencurahkan air hujan untuk menjirus bahan kimia yang berada pada tubuh kami.


Seorang gadis yang berada di belakang saya bengkak dan merah matanya.  Sambil mengesat matanya, beliau berkata, "Tahun ini kali pertama saya bayar cukai."  Kawan di sebelahnya pula mempersendakannya, "Jadi kerajaan pun pulangkan kepada kamu sekarang!"


Kami ketawa terbahak-bahak bersama, dan gadis itu mencungkil senyuman pahit.  Menurut khabar, sebutir peluru gas pemedih mata berharga RM300, dan hari ini kerajaan dengan murah hati menghadiahkan kepada rakyatnya.  Puluhan bilion ringgit dibelanjakan untuk pertahanan negara, selain jet yang tidak boleh terbang, kapal selam yang tidak boleh selam - mungkin kami bersyukur dengan gas pemedih mata dan meriam air yang terbukti memadai harganya.


Gas pemedih mata dilepaskan lagi.  Sebutir peluru gas itu jatuh pada tempat yang tidak jauh daripada kami.  Asapnya tersebar ke hospital.  Asap yang berkepul-kepul juga berlegar di kawasan masuk Rumah Bersalin Cina.  Jangan kata kepada saya bahawa tiada gas pemedih mata dilepaskan ke arah hospital, jangan pula kamu kata kamu tidak tahu apa itu "impact zone" gas pemedih.  Yang Berhormat Menteri Kesihatan, jikalau saya melontar sebiji bom tangan pada jarak 1 kaki di depan kamu, jangan pula menyalahkan saya jikalau kamu dibom mati.  Ini kerana bom tangan saya tidak menyentuh anda.  Mungkin anda boleh menyalahkan angin yang meniupkan kuasa bom tangan ini ke arah kamu! (Ketika menafikan penembakan gas pemedih ke dalam perkarangan hospital, Menteri Kesihatan Liow Tiong Lai mendakwa gas pemedih mata mungkin ditiup angin ke dalam kawasan hospital.)


Selepas hujan berhenti, kelompok orang ramai hanya tinggal separuh dari asalnya.  Ramai yang memandang dari dalam bangunan hospital, dan kebanyakannya sudah keletihan.  Beberapa orang pemimpin parti politik cuba berunding dengan polis, dan peserta di belakangnya menjerit "Buka jalan, buka jalan!"


Tidak lama kemudian, orang di depan memberitahu bahawa polis bersetuju untuk membuka jalan kepada peserta.  Namun, apabila peserta berkumpul semula di Jalan Pudu, polis pula mengambil kesempatan untuk melepaskan meriam air.  Peserta menjerit, "Polis tipu, tipu!"  Apa peliknya?  Sedangkan pimpinan tertinggi kerajaan boleh berdolak-dalih, apa pula orang bawahnnya?


Peserta terpaksa bersurai selepas meriam air dilepaskan.  Polis mula menyerbu ke dalam hospital untuk menangkap peserta perhimpunan.  Kenyataan dari kerajaan (hujah Menteri Kesihatan) mendakwa bahawa tiada tangkapan dibuat di dalam hospital, sekadar menghantar peserta yang cedera masuk ke hospital untuk rawatan.


Nampaknya dalam masa sekelip mata, munculnya ramai pakar Photoshop dan Video Editing, dan kesemua video dan gambar menjadi palsu.  Mengapa pula polis menghantar ratusan orang ke dalam rumah bersalin?  Adakah ratusan lelaki dan perempuan itu mahu bersalin?  Mungkin gas itu bukan untuk memberi kesan memedihkan mata, tetapi merangsang untuk bersalin.


Saya terserempak dengan seorang kawan yang tidak saya jumpai untuk 10 tahun kebelakangan, maka saya mengikutnya untuk berlari ke Jalan Robertson.  Terdapat sebuah gereja di hujung jalan itu.  Sekumpulan muslim sedang bersembahyang di depan gereja itu, menghala ke Mekah.  Dua orang pakcik India dalam gereja membuka paip air agar orang yang mencari perlindungan di situ boleh mencuci mukanya.  Apa itu perpaduan kaum?  Apa itu keharmonian agama?  Kawan yang menggagaskan 1Malaysia itu harus turun ke perhimpunan ini untuk lihat sendiri.


Puluhan anggota polis datang dari belakang, pakcik India ini membuka pagar besinya untuk kami lalui.  Kami berjalan ke belakang gereja, melangkaui tembok yang tingginya lima kaki, dan duduk untuk berehat di lorong itu.  Maka tamatlah perhimpunan yang saya sertai ini, untuk diri saya.


Akhirnya saya ingin berkata kepada badut yang mendakwa "apa yang susah sangat terkena sebutir gas pemedih mata".  Benar, mungkin dari kesudahannya, kamu menang dalam perhimpunan ini.  Rakyat gagal sampai ke Stadium Merdeka, memorandum gagal diserah ke Istana Negara, malah peserta disuraikan tanpa belas kasihan.  Tapi jangan lupa, kemenanganmu disebabkan pilihan kami untuk tidak membalas dengan keganasan.


Saya tetap yakin, apabila suara rakyat menjadi tsunami, anda gagal menghalang dengan meriam air yang kuat dan gas pemedih yang memedihkan.  Siapa yang menang dan siapa pula yang kalah kelak, kita tunggu dan tengok! 

Sunday, November 20, 2011

The sky of life is merely light of dark


Life will never easy, that's what they said...what's they said for us all..
but they never show me how, what its look like.. they says that every man will face his day...
But they never say, the life somehow is unlighted and darken...they never tell me that is the real meaning of life.

Life is light, some blurred, some dimmed, some bright and some is even shine..
but light is like a white of black,you wont see the light if there's no dark.
be it blurred, dimmed, bright or even shine..even shine is just not as shine as it is if the dark is too full.. too unseen and dumbfounded...Life is like that... There's a Glory light nor even gloomy ones.


So dear life..,
watching you leave with tears on your sleeve is hurt,
Notice that the tears because of mine that are not exactly dry even hurts more..
Life, it's not just you, you know it's hurt me too,it's not just you...that is hurting, it 's me too..

So dear life..,
I'm sorry if before, i wasn't here to catch the fall, i didn't hear you well when you've called.
I'm sorry if i too wondering out late until i finally lately arrived..sure its been long..waiting me under the sunken dark.

I know the sky seems misty dusk, the night are extremely breezy windswept, but when it gets dark, if the raining storm fill its sound to the room, and if until it's hard to see. just have a faith, I'm on my way there, i'm running there, i'll be there turning on the lights.... InsyaAllah.



Thursday, October 20, 2011

My life is my story



Small part in my heart always telling me, " Your life is your story..."... and i start to pick my life up..along this journey ^^

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or to help you figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be (possibly your roommate,neighbor, coworker, longlost friend, lover, or even a complete stranger) but when you lock eyes with them, you know at that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.

And sometimes things happen to you that may seem horrible, painful, and unfair at first, but in reflection you find that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential, strength, willpower, or heart.

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness, and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. It would be safe and comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless.

The people you meet who affect your life, and the success and downfalls you experience help to create who you become. Even the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact, they are probably the most poignant and important ones. If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them, for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious when you open your heart. If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because in a way, they are teaching you to love and how to open your heart and eyes to things.

Make every day count!!! Appreciate every moment and take from those moments everything that you possibly can for you may never be able to experience it again. Talk to people that you have never talked to before,and actually listen. Let yourself fall in love, break free, and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, it will be hard for others to believe in you. You can make of your life anything you wish. Create your own life then go out and live it with absolutely no regrets.

*MOST IMPORTANTLY!!!* If you LOVE someone tell him or her, for you never know what tomorrow may have in store!!!

Monday, October 10, 2011

Yang berCAHAYA xsemestinya EMAS, dan yang CANTIK tidak semestinya PERMATA

" Yang berCAHAYA xsemestinya EMAS, dan yang CANTIK tidak semestinya PERMATA"



we people always slip ourselves into the lie of this world has made, i also used to sunk inside the current. The flow was unbearable...i was about to give up and trust hand of no one.

The journey out was the toughest ever, i been test until the final end.. but coming out from those dark tunnel made me a betterment, now i can see the different, im glad..^^

I wud say, it's been a long and winding journey, but finally i'm here tonight, picking up the pieces.. and walking back into the light, Into the sunset of my glory, into Your glory...Allah thanks for your loves and tenderness care.

I think here is where my heart and future lies, There's nothing like the feeling when I look into the eyes,...its been a long journey until here, thinking about the years I spent just passing through, this bring me back to the circle and I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you..^^

Now i found you, .......My dreams came true, My miracle

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

world...., why me?

Ive a confession, Im happy with what im having now, my life, my achievement, thanks for your blist..No doubt im very proud of it, proud to myself..im glad my family proud of who i am..that's quite important to me, i like to see smile on their face..

but on the other side,deep under... personally i feel sorry to my self..i dun want to say disappointed, seems like im out of gratitude but i do feel it...I hate how the lifeline has been crafted, its not fair..

i know, obviously now im away from my rationale thinking..but plzz..juzz 1 night, i juz want to spill out all the hurt im facing thru...why me, i tot im a good servant... a good man

But i think maybe that wasnt enough, Allah...world...plz be nice on me,

im good guy already..i swear, i love everybody..i support everybody...im doing it all kerana Allah,
i do anything for others.. i even put my world into jeopardize as long as others happy with their life..i sacrificed my smile as long other received theirs...yahh im quite aware probably U now testing my honesty..., but this is too harsh for me... im not that strong

God...i've no complained, i juz want to let u know that Im simply juz a normal person, average human being,
Isnt that enough? Honestly even now im still trying to be fair again...if the test on me is not complete, not enough yet..go On...dont stop, my heart still got room to be hurt, tears to be drop... i still can fight ^^ hurt me while u can... but plz promise me...tomorrow will be a better day... the gain is worth the pain..

Terima Kasih

Friday, September 23, 2011

Dont Drive to Fast.., cuz might be somebody that follow you from behind

In this life...Saya begitu laju kehadapan, i press my pedal..and accelerate as possible.. sampai saya kadang terlupa utk menoleh kebelakang...~ now i feel that kind of feeling..got scoop of selfish banana split...

I hate it, sort of doing wronged.... im not being fair enuf



*** Shared interesting story ~~

Same situation of 2 story

spouse ~
BF : Syg, moto i rosak tepi jalan ni..
GF : Yeke, sian nyer...then how? ujage diri elok2 k...ader paper col 1 tau...

Sahabat~
BF : Bro, moto gua wat hal plak dah nie...
BFF : Asal lak bro? ko kat ne...., aku gi sane skrg...lu lepak lu tepi...

That is it, i honestly like this story, somehow its true...
so sebaik manapun ur buah hati...never aside ur sahabat... ^^ thanks world ^^

Monday, May 16, 2011

The Play of Life

In life, everybody can be Sir Alex Ferguson or either Pep Guardiola,

We got our own roles to play,
Games to steer,
Strategy to design and decide..

In fact we also associated with the club to manage
and tradition to be sustained...

But most of all is how we script players and fands to be orchestrate and poetize it to be come ones, the ones that we hope so... ( ^.^)v

Sunday, April 17, 2011

When less is more

When the less is more....menarik kan quote nie.. juz listening this quote
dah terpikat dah even 1st time dengar..kan...kan..it flash the real meaning knape kite hidup..cara kita hidup bla bla bla....

Sometimes, kite fikir...we are not complete until we have this and we have that, we think of giving and doing charities would taken things away from us.. or.. maybe.. the gift of gratitude has been taken dari kita, kite cume nampak ringgit dan sen sahaja. Andai terkurang..kite xpuas hati dan merungut dgn hidup ni. yes agree,agree with u. I think it's today nature.

Tapi kan , in other perspective...y shouldn't we think that...theconjuction of less brought the meaning of the more it could be complimented.. much rooms to be shared,more interaction of completion..wider target to be reach...interesting kan!!!

Oppss..ok, i think this is another example la utk describe when less is more.. If you failed in doing something, doesn't mean it's already the end of the day..but, somehow, it do prepares you in the other way..its make you tougher, better..!! its make you, another you...so terms applies, checked!!

okeh..dr perspective lagi 1 nie plak lagi...gud to share this point of view, which i think, actually the generosity is not taking anything and made u lesser, Try to think of giving not only as a duty, but a privileged... hmm indah kan.. just when it less...its more...


sama juga dgn dgn diri, a talent and specialty is the thing to put us high at the top and low at the ground..., jadinya..merendah diri tu sgt baik kan...another When less is more

Terrrrrrlalu indah kan.... ( ^.^)v

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Satisfaction that need you to pay...

i think i can make a conclusion,

we r happy when we buy things,spend your money to get what you want, it is a satisfaction...deeply indescribably feeling of ownership...

In spite of that,
when its come down to the road, u do your math on ur total spending..
suddenly it trigger your sense, "owh God.., what am i doing..."

~haha stupid..but yet, u have to agree, life works that way... ^^

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

...."‘I love YOU’ and to give our loved ones the time that they deserve"

Taken of fren of fren ^^

somebody is waiting for your attention,

After 21 years of marriage, my wife wanted me to take another woman out to dinner and a movie.
She said, “I love you, but I know this other woman loves you and would Love to spend some time with you.”


The other woman that my wife wanted me to visit was my Mother, who has been a widow for 19 years, but the demands of my work and my three children had made it possible to visit her only occasionally.
That night I called to invite her to go out for dinner and a movie.
“What’s wrong, are you well?” she asked.
My mother is the type of woman who suspects that a late night call or a surprise invitation is a sign of bad news.
“I thought that it would be pleasant to spend some time with you,” I responded. “Just the two of us.”
She thought about it for a moment and then said, “I would like that very much.”


That Friday after work, as I drove over to pick her up, I was a bit nervous. When I arrived at her house, I noticed that she, too, seemed to be nervous about our date. She waited in the door with her coat on. She had curled her hair and was wearing the dress that she had worn to celebrate her last wedding anniversary. She smiled from a face that was as radiant as an angel’s.
“I told my friends that I was going to go out with my son and they were impressed,” she said, as she got into the car. “They can’t wait to hear about our meeting.”


We went to a restaurant that, although not elegant, was very nice and cozy. My mother took my arm as if she were the First Lady.
After we sat down, I had to read the menu. Her eyes could only read large print. Half-way through the entrees, I lifted my eyes and saw Mother sitting there staring at me. A nostalgic smile was on her lips.


“It was I who used to have to read the menu when you were small,” she said.
“Then it’s time that you relax and let me return the favor,” I responded.
During the dinner , we had an agreeable conversation nothing extraordinary but catching up on recent events of each other’s life. We talked so much that we missed the movie.
As we arrived at her house later, she said, “I’ll go out with you again, but only if you let me invite you.”
I agreed.


“How was your dinner date?” asked my wife when I got home.
“Very nice, much more so than I could have imagined,” I answered.
A few days later, my mother died of a massive heart attack. It happened so suddenly that I didn’t have a chance to do anything for her.
Sometime later, I received an envelope with a copy of a restaurant receipt from the same place Mother and I had dined. An attached note said:
“I paid this bill in advance. I wasn’t sure that I could be there; but, nevertheless, I paid for two plates – one for you and the other for your wife. You will never know what that night meant for me. I love you, son.”


At that moment, I understood the importance of saying in time: ‘I love YOU’ and to give our loved ones the time that they deserve.
Nothing in life is more important than your family. Give them the time they deserve, because these things cannot be put off till some “other” time.

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Dude..we live in a rainbow of chaos


As per request by Mr yg berkenaan yang berkaitan dengan gambar..this 1 and this entry for you dude...

"ko tak perasan ke ko gunakan orng lain untuk kepentingan ko..."


Mr. X : "binoor ntahla...ooo tulah manusia kan binoor...t tulis lam terciptanya duniaku ek."

So from my perspective xtually browsing to find the absurd in these case, Images of 'kepentingan ko' things happened rewind back as i try to configure whats wronged in these situation.... and i am trying to link up with each other.
And....finally ahhhh...i see...
We live in a rainbow of chaos.

Human business exactly resembles like business war,
People tends to used what ever they could, take what ever opportunity..optimize every potential...

yahh...got hair-wired by things we called friends, duty, courtesy,relation, urbane and a lot more possesed by human...

Yes dude...kita pun manusia, mungkin kedepan2 kita lak wat slh n ter'jadi' mcm tu...
so the best way is...advice n be a fair person...hopefully it will work^^

Friday, August 20, 2010

The fight in the matter of acknowledgement..



Acceptance is not submission, it is acknowledgement of the facts of a situation. Then deciding what you're going to do about it. Where we must each find our separate meaning in the persuasion of our days until we meet in the meaning of the world.

In Kampung...we....



Nowadays, in this harsh cities...people are anxious to live for the future that they forget to live the present...

n makes us think that sometimes its good to live in kampung though ^^

Friday, April 30, 2010

Life is a beautiful mess

...along the way u bump into people who make a dent on your life...

This is my message for the utmost, life is simple yet it still beautiful ryt, kadang2 people get upset, disappointed in life when they not meeting to their aimed...bcuz of the very minor things that they have to endure, but at the time like that, they cant never really tell whether it is minor or the major things in their life, which are best for them or not... saper tahu kan hidup nie macam mana. die bukan macam a mathematical problem which always looked easy when it solved..., bukan..sekarang ni it still at the situation that takes you to solved it...

looking for the mess perhaps not in our top next thing to do list,tp mungkin kadang kita menghadapi detik2 yang sukar, bertemu individu yang sukar...or maybe thing don`t go as we hopes and plan...

so tenderly... i like to share my opinion here...simply bcuz...we`re friends...and i am trying to be a good friends

what will happen in the future, xde saper yang tahu kan...good things happen, bad things happen..

personally from me.. trust your own heart, do what its tell... bcuz where ever it will lead you then... its will be like a northern star, sebagai bintang penunjuk... if you fail at that the first time, its okay... bcuz it will leading you straight to the bright side of you future. you will learned for the betterment.

so c`mon, easy...dont let yourself down
ok basiccally to be real..this entry is my support untuk my buddy yg seems crush to 1 girl, he trying to be there as the concern as well...but u guest what,response by playing hard to get from the girls....or the least of acknowledgement ...hmm...

dude..
maybe other person cakap bende yg mcm ni...
"bro...ko jgn tertipu...", "hey... hidup panjang lagi laa...dont get obsessed with the girls that treat u that way", "bang...jgn la ko abaikan diri sendiri demi awek tu.."

i agree with them...no doubt, but i also agree with you.. when you still standing for what you feel right. you still be there for that girl... even so,sometimes its looked like there`s no acknowledgment for 'always there' for her... dont get confused and stress.

As like i said...kalau ko niat baik...it will lead you for a good path, its still be a northern star for you.. and i am sure... you will found you own 'other half' one day...bcuz u simply a nice guy i ever met. so its ok bro.. juz be nice with anyone....

But bro, sometimes for your own sake, you also must consider and question yourself....
Until what extend the crush could brought u to..., there must be a line to draw..ko boleh pilih mana2 jalan..you have my full support anyway.

so for the girlz, woman or even boys that being selfish in their life..can we juz be tolerate, down to earth.. can we juz being ordinary human with the good heart which sometimes put others in front of ourselves like good people doing a deeds for us, doing a favor and charity without asking for the return, life will be beautiful, or even if the mess come around.. its still fine...

so bro ...as i told to myself...
looking for your other half isn't like found and match job....
sometimes you dont even know her at the glance, even so she maybe already linking with you, sometimes the person that you think perfectly will be your soul mates meant not, when you get to know her closer...
the jodoh play with a rhythm here dude... dier bukan apa yg kite nk, tp apa yg kite perlu...
but dont worry...i believes...she`s on her way here bro...

hahaha.....btw...to end this entry with smile...for your smile, everybody smile
hey...do you know "girl with rhythm"?...no...its juz because of....


Hahahhahahaha

as for my self...
Seek for the rhythm... a beautiful mess ^^

Saturday, April 3, 2010

"Surat Dari Anak Mak Yang Dah Tak Nakal"

Cerita nie .. bukan tulisan aku.., bukan juga surat aku.. aku cuma berkongsi perasaan yang sama sesama manusia, aku suma letakan kisah seorang hamba Allah, kisah 'sejuta hati untuk ibu'.. sebab aku rasakan ia sangat bermakna.. dan dah lama aku xde entry yang 'manusia' macam ni. anyway ~ takziah untuk miss X, Al fatihah saya untuk ibu anda... juga Al fatihah untuk ibu kepada ibu saya~

Mak..
Terlalu bosan rasaa duduk membilang hari..
Dah hampir sepuluh bulan mak pergi,
Rasanya baru semalam mak peluk kiter kan sejuk syahdu masih terasa lagi nih..
Mak tau tak..
itu lah pertama kali mak peluk anak mak yang nakal ni sejak kiter dewasa..
dan itu juga terakhir kali nya.
Emmmm...rupanya mak dah tau mak nak pergi jauh..
nak tinggal kan anak2 mak.. nak tinggal kan dunia fana ni..
mak macam dah sedia..
Seminggu sebelum tu..
mak dah menganyam tikar mengkuang 3 helai..
Akak kata sampai ke pagi mak anyam tikar tuu....
tanpa rasa mengantuk, tanpa rasa letih......
kakak pun rasa hairan.....
mak tak penah buat gitu.....
pastu mak pasang radio kecil di sebelah mak......
tapi mak seolah2 tak sedar bahawa rancangan radio tu siaran siam .......
kengkadang siaran indonesia ..
mak terus tekun menganyam...
Rupanya tikar yang telah mak siapkan tu di gunakan untuk mengiringi mak ke kuburan...
Pastu mak sapu sampah sekeliling rumah bersih2....
pastu mak jemur karpet-karpet. ..
pastu mak ubahkan sofa ke tempat lain..
mak biarkan ruang tu kosong..
rupanya kat situ jenazah mak diletakkan..
paling menarik sekali mak bgtau kat maner sume duit dan barang kemas mak..
ada kat dalam almari.....
ada kat dalam dalam beg.....
ada dalam ASB.....
ada kat dalam Tabung Haji..
mak cakap tak berapa cukup lagi......
ada kat dalam gulung tikar.....
masa tu mak perasan takk..??
kiter gelak sakan bila mak bgtau duit dalam gulung tikar...
kiter kata mak ni memang pesenn lama laaa...
mak cuma gelak jer...
eeemmm...bahagiaa nya saat ituu..

Mak.....
Hari tu hari sabtu 18/08/1999 pukul 3 petang mak tiba2 sakit perut.....
bila malam tu kiter sampai dari KL.....
mak dah dalam kesakitan.
Akak dan abang kat kampong semua dah pujuk.....
mak tetap takmau pi hospital.... .
dan cuma tinggal giliran kiter sahaja yang belum pujuk..
Mak kata mak takmau duduk dalam hospital.... .
tapi kiter berkeras juga pujukk..
nanti di hospital ada doktor...
ada ubat untuk mak..
kat rumah kami hanya mampu sapu minyak dan urut jer..
Mak tetap tak bersetuju... ..
mak memang degil..
tak salah, anak mak yang ni pon mengikut perangai mak tu..
Tapi akhirnya bila melihat keadaan mak makin teruk....
mak sakit perut sampai nak sentuh perut mak pon sakit
kami adik beradik sepakat hantar juga mak ke hospital....

Mak.....
amponkan kami semua...
kami nak mak sehat...
kami sayang mak...
kami tak mau mak sakit...
kami terpaksa juga hantar mak ke hospital....
ampon kan kami yer mak....

Mak.....
Jam 4.30 pagi 19/08 /2006
Bila tiba aja kat hospital....
nurse tengah balut mak dengan kain putih...
kenapa mak xnak tunggu walau kejap pun...
mak..kiter hancur luluh mase tu mak..
mak mesti nampak kiter jatuh terduduk di lantai hospital...
Mesti mak nampak abang cium dahi mak.....
Mesti mak nampak akak baca doa untuk mak....
Mesti mak nampak adik terduduk kat kerusi kat sudut itu...
mesti mak nampak semua tu kann...kann. .kannn

Mak tau tak....
Pagi tu balik dari hospital jam 5.20 pagi kiter mamandu dalam keadaan separuh sedar...
Adik kat sebelah diam melayan perasann...
Kenangan bersama mak berputar dalam kepala ini...
jalan di depan terasa makin kelam.....
airmata dah tak mampu di tahan....
Masa tu seandainya apa-apa terjadi di jalan itu kiter rela...
andai kereta berdentum pun pasti kiter tak sedar...
Namun alhamdulillah akhirnya kiter sampai juga...
di sebab kan pagi masih awal, jadi jalan tu lenggang..
kosong....sekosong hati ini.....
Sepanjang perjalanan terasa kedinginan subuh itu lain benar suasananya..
terasa syahdu dan sayu...dinginnnn....

Mak......
Kiter masih ingat lagi....
Kiter baca AlQuran kat tepi mak temankan mak...
Jam 11.00 pagi mak di mandi kan ....
Anak2 mak yang pangku masa mak mandi....
Mak mesti rasa betapa lembut nya kami mengosok seluruh tubuh mak.....
Kiter gosok kaki mak perlahan lahan.....

Mak perasan tak.....?
Makcik yang mandikan mak tu pujuk kiter.....
Dia kata..." dikk...jangan nangis...kalau sayang mak jangan buat gitu...jangan nangis ya.."
Bila makcik tu kata gitu...
lagi laaaa laju airmata ni...
tapi kiter kawal supaya tak menitik atas mak....

Mak.....Sampai takat ini surat ni kiter tulis.....
kiter nangis ni.....
Ni kat dlm bilik...baru pukul 4.00 pagi....
Takder orang yang bangun lagi.....
kiter dengar nasyid tajuk "anak soleh" kiter sedih...
kiter rindu kat mak....!
Takpa la....
nanti bila kita selesai sembanyang subuh,
kiter baca yassin untuk mak...
mak tunggu ya..!

Mak..
Sebelum muka mak di tutup buat selamanya...
Semua anak2 mak mengelilingi mak...
menatap wajah mak buat kali terakhir....
Semua orang kata mak seolah2 senyum aja...

Mak rasa tak....
masa tu kiter sentuh dahi mak....
kiter rasa sejukkkk sangat dahi makk.....
Kiter tak mampu nak cium mak...
kiter tak daya....
kiter tuliskan kalimah tauhid kat dahi mak dengan air mawar...
Airmata kiter tak boleh tahan....
Mak mesti ingat kan yang anak mak ni jadi imam solat jenazah untuk mak...
tapi kite suruh tok imam bacakan doa sebab kite sebak.....
Jam 12 tengahari mak diusung keluar dari rumah....
Akak pula dah terkulai dlm pelukan makcik...
badan akak terasa panas...

makk...
anak mak yang seorang tu demam....
Mak tauu...
cuma akak sorang saja anak mak yang tak mengiringi mak ke tanah perkuburan.. .

Mak.....
Hari2 ku lalui tanpa kewujudan mak lagi...
Begitu terasa kehilangan mak...
boleh kata setiap malam selepas maghrib anak mak ini berendam airmata...
Dan sampai satu tahap....
masa tu malam jumaat selepas maghrib....
Selepas kiter baca yassin ngan kawan-kawan...
entah kenapa biler kat bilik kiter keluarkan gambar2 mak pastu apa lagi...
semakin kiter tenung terasa semakin sayu...
tangisan tak dapat dibendung...

Mak tauu...
kiter cuba bertahan...
memujuk diri sendiri tapi tak juga reda...
Kiter rasa nak telefon mak.....
nak cakap dengan mak.....
anak mak yang ni dah tak betul kan ..?
Dan akhirnya dalam sedu sedan itu kiter telefon kampong....
Kiter cakap dengan kakak..kiter nangis lagi...
Puas la kakak memujuk kiter...
Akak kata..." tak baik laa nangis aje..doa lah untuk mak.."
Dan akhirnya akak juga nangis.....

Mak tau tak..
di saat itu kerinduan terasa menusuk sehingga ke hulu hati...
rasa nyilu sangat...
menusuk-nusuk sehingga terasa begitu sakit dalam dada ni....
Sampai sekarang bila kerinduan itu menjelma....
hanya sedekah al-fatihah kiter berikan.....

Mak....
cukup la sampai sini dulu....
kawan kiter dah ketuk pintu bilik tu....
kejap lagi kami nak pergi solat subuh kat masjid...
selalunya, kiter yang bawak mak naik motor kan ....
kali ni kiter jalan kaki dengan kawan pulak...
esok kiter ingat nak tulis surat kat ayah pula....
Mula2 kiter tak tau nak hantar mana surat nih....
pastu kawan kiter bgtau...
simpan je buat kenangan..
Kiter cuma tau alamat ni aje...
Takper yer mak...k
Kiter kasi orang lain baca...
Kiter stop dulu...
sebab kawan kiter dah lama tunggu tu...
akhir kata untuk mak,

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH
dan jutaan terima kasih kerana membesarkan kiter...
memberi seluruh kasih sayang dari kecil sampai masuk sekolah..
sampai masuk univesiti...
sampai kiter boleh rase naik kapal terbang...
boleh rasa duduk kat negara orang...
sampai akhir hayat ini jasa mak tak akan mampu kiter balas..


Sekian terima kasih
- dari anak mak yang dah tak nakal makk...

Friday, March 26, 2010

Cheer leader effect ~ on wanita cemburukan bidadari syurga?

i juz finished reading an entry kat blog ahmad ray... pasal wanita and bidadari syurga..
and from the reading, i juz can conclude the situation that supposedly...
there`s no anxiety or fear should be amongs by woman...

"Ustaz, boleh tak kalau di syurga nanti, saya tak nak suami saya ada bidadari?"

Soalan ini pernah dikemukakan oleh seorang wanita..manurut entry tu...seorng datin

Datin tersebut wajar diberi ucapan syabas kerana berani menyuarakan apa yang terbuku di kalbu ramai wanita. Tapi pasti kebanyakannya tak tergamak nak luahkan perasaan tu.
Yah..so i try to... think... if us man in woman shoes...mesti rasa macam.. " ikut hati..xnk,xsuke...tp..agama ckp mcm tu plak?" so angguk terpaksa..senyum xrela... ^^..

tp...ntah..walau mcmn pun.. wanita xdapat nk mengiyakan sepenuhnya..aku rasa la..maybe, pasal ader...perasaan mudah cemburu tu kot...that`s y they behave like that..., as profound explanation, such reason is... woman always think that his husband is the absolute ownership of wife...!! ^^...klakar kan...

so relate to this...to me, its kinna answered a parts of spoil marriage concept, sebagai mana bila lelaki tidak fahamkan konsep "isteri bukannya hak milik, tapi anugerah" mcm dlm cite CINTA lakonan dato rahim noor eh...ke razali aper ntah haha ...bg aku mcm tu la jugak kot 'absolute ownership' bagi pihak perempuan...

ok berbalik kpada soalan cik..datin...keh3
dijawab oleh ustaz tu dgn... :

"Di syurga nanti, selagi puan tak berenggang dengan suami puan, suami puan seakan-akan tak nampak pun bidadari. Tak perlu lah puan risau sangat. Yang penting sekarang, usahakan agar puan bersama suami dapat menjadi ahli syurga. Kalau isteri terpaksa masuk neraka buat sementara, dan suami yang masuk syurga dulu, saya tak jamin la bidadari tak ganggu dia.."

Hmm..kenapa suami tak nampak bidadari bila isterinya ada? Sebab wanita ahli syurga kelak akan dijadikan oleh Allah sebagai ketua bidadari. Hebatnya kecantikan ketua bidadari ni, adalah ibarat cahaya bulan mengambang penuh di musim panas. Para bidadari yang lain pula ibarat bintang-bintang yang bertaburan di sekelilingnya. Hanya menyerlah tika bulan menyepi.

so bagi wanita, jangan biar bulan menyepi (wahhhh...)...so..adakah masih cemburu...berdasarkan pngalaman..rasanya masih ada...yer la..cemburu wanita jgn diduga dalamnya...haha!!...ok teruskan...

Maka apabila Ketua Bidadari itu hadir, si suami seolah-olah terpukau, dan bidadari yang lain seakan tak kelihatan, ataupun nampak kecil saja. Macam gadis jelita dikelilingi budak-budak tadika. Tentu saja fokus si suami takkan beralih dari melihat isterinya.
Hebat kan? Tapi macam mana kalau tiada bidadari langsung? Kan lagi bagus kalau tiada saingan?


Tidak juga. Haaa..here is the strike...mcm main bowling tuh..!! Klu korang layan citer, How i meet ur mother...bende nie dinamakan Cheerleader effect..plz be clear that..isu sbnarnya bukan pasal persaingan, tp..effect drpd composition dier tu..

Andai tiada bidadari, maka cantiknya Ketua Bidadari umpama bulan penuh di langit yang kosong. Kejelitaannya jadi kurang menyerlah kerana dia cantik sorang-sorang, tak ada siapa yang kurang dari dia, jadi pada siapa dia nak dibandingkan?


^^
so..wahai wanita2...faham x...?
rasanya xperlu mengelabah, risau...cemburu xkena tempat...apa kata kita buka sikit kotak pemikiran kita, detach skit perasaan emosi xbertempat..., dan lihat dengan lebih jelas...

believed me... being cool and calm..result us to a better person..
Wallahualam~
(wah...entry berunsurkan keagamaan yg pertama dr aku..huhu^^~ tp..aku rasa lebih kepada share pendapat..^^)

The Northern Star...

I set out on a narrow way...many years ago...
Hoping I would find true love, along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

Every long lost dream lead me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
...

(God Bless the broken road, Rascal flatts)

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

How life works..?never can conclude..

Before solat maghrib td..i juz blog walking (yeah people calls by that term) but i rather juz call it blog jogging ~ hahaha..crazy me

why?because its more like u do the jogs job..its work more quicker than juz a walk or whole content reading session!!...so i called it jog..haha^^..(owh what i am saying here....haha)

so...i juz read in someone blog entries regarding 'knowing U..the description on her side n bla bla bla...'

this been quoted from her blog ~
'is it true that u have to know sum1 to love sum1.....
or is it your first instinct about that sum1 that makes u fall in love....'

woww..this is the tricky part...we need to be absolute n clear, we talk in realistic way...

1st phrase... yes its true
2nd phrase... indeed..that 1 also true..

why i say this 1 xtually tricky..lets be precise..

sometimes..when u meet someones...or even juz have a glance at her/him..u feel like your both puzzle`s suppose to cross somehow..u believe that way.. and yet..its true and no wronged in that.. whose know? its about future we talk ryt...

yet to be realistic n safe...we do practiced the 1st phrase word..
u have to know sum1 to love sum1.....

so lets jump to years forward... u freely able to choose the start of yours...1st phrase or 2nd phrase...because we know..who else could ever possibly shaped our future if its not u...me..ourselves. ..

owh this entry remind me to the concept that i hold onto~ the road not taken

owh...ok ok...now..lets jump...
lets say that u possibly have a happy day..and that would be greatly fine...or maybe worse ever..the moment ones u regret it..sure u`ll look into these day n say...only if u look in different perspective..only if i choose the other road....

but that`s if....well what ever comes..
the only thing that i can conclude is...that is how life works..sure Allah ada perancangan yang lebih baik..our part in this play is only do the things we felt right to heart and seek for the guidance of the mighty Allah...that sounds better

well..its hard to juz conclude..what`s the right decision we suppose to take..,but personally.. to be fair and positive..what ever comes tomorrow..i take that as my fate and destiny in fact i will drive it positively n lead for a betterment of other tomorrow...^^ hee

Saturday, February 6, 2010

dude...ur weighted.. (hahahaha)

"dude..u look different when last time i saw u.."
"hey.. you add some weight over you...didnt u? "..
"Gosh...u seems cool today..., u know..after what already happen"

perhaps that might be the word that suppose to spill out from the mouth of friends... even though they delivered it in shaped of ones nice smile or a kind of question like above..it`s still feel good..guys..i still appreciate it...

(normally...aku jwb..hati senang kot..^^ haha)

those word in coherently reflect to the sense that i like replied in these sense..

so..i say it this way...
soo...dude looks(laugh)..
what ever past go past..

let me put ur mind at ease..
"my past"..i dont want these kind of people back..okay
there always a reason why we not together..
we do plan..but sure Allah have biggest than bigger..
so thing of it`s kind.... (particularly described)
i better off without her..

sure she will be with somebody..but that person will be not me..
she`s juz not the one
there i go..^^ and that was it..
^^

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Those were the days when....

Those were the days, when I had no idea what I was doing, where I was, why am I here and how the hell am I going to finish it.

Today....Being lost, brought me to interesting places meeting interesting people. start with my years back then, my very first day in utm..

The subject..the procedure...the design..and sure for the top of the list...
is the thinking, breaking the rigid thinking..
owhh hell... the different from now and back then was even more than juz far far away from the man i knew todays. a huge different instead of development of possession ,skill or thinking..

everything is killing me..juz like instant noodle being pour up by hot water....its killing me instantly.

the language they speak...all beyond my brain can be reached...im totally crap down there..
but meeting a lot of people we called friends, fellow, buddy, enemies or foe..was another nostalgic and memorable memories that i wish to played it in the cassette and hear for it again again and again...

meeting teq on the 1st day...even the wavelength still hugely different,but atleast "Hi" still can spill out from my mouth..then meet badik... saleh..aweet, am... hafez..more and less brought me closer to my finish line...even though at that day...i juz cant even possibly ever imagine where are those finish line are...

Those also were the days when....being lost without realising im lost..was a teribble..!!stand here,ryt now...make me look back to my younger days...being shouted and blamed for the mistake..., being underestimate for the narrow thinking that i possessed...owhhh what can i say...i juz miss it. poor and innocent little boy who pursuing study and self development. hence... the story obviously aren`t as simple as that...

but right now..explaining,try to clear arif mindset and "re path" arip thinking...it juz touched me,remind me my deep memory from the part that i dont know where did it trigger...i can talk and consult like what salleh used to share with me...what lut trying to make me understand...jiha, ang... and all the fellow friends and lecturers..

well sure isn`t much that i can said..or even...there`s no bargain that should i sell to show that there are a lot of amount and how much thanks should i say



i feel like "let me cry...".trying to remember all this stuff... thanks for those who forge me to be the man of tomorrow..to stand still until what am i today...

Trimass...guys ^^
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