The sky of life is merely light of dark

Life will never easy, that's what they said...what's they said for us all..

but they never show me how, what its look like.. they says that every man will face his day...

But they never say, the life somehow is unlighted and darken...they never tell me that is the real meaning of life.

Life is light, some blurred, some dimmed, some bright and some is even shine..

but light is like a white of black,you wont see the light if there's no dark.

be it blurred, dimmed, bright or even shine..even shine is just not as shine as it is if the dark is too full.. too unseen and dumbfounded...Life is like that... There's a Glory light nor even gloomy ones.

So dear life..,

watching you leave with tears on your sleeve is hurt,

Notice that the tears because of mine that are not exactly dry even hurts more..

Life, it's not just you, you know it's hurt me too,it's not just you...that is hurting, it 's me too..

So dear life..,

I'm sorry if before, i wasn't here to catch the fall, i didn't hear you well when you've called.

I'm sorry if i too wondering out late until i finally lately arrived..sure its been long..waiting me under the sunken dark.

I know the sky seems misty dusk, the night are extremely breezy windswept, but when it gets dark, if the raining storm fill its sound to the room, and if until it's hard to see. just have a faith, I'm on my way there, i'm running there, i'll be there turning on the lights.... InsyaAllah.

Yang berCAHAYA xsemestinya EMAS, dan yang CANTIK tidak semestinya PERMATA

" Yang berCAHAYA xsemestinya EMAS, dan yang CANTIK tidak semestinya PERMATA"



we people always slip ourselves into the lie of this world has made, i also used to sunk inside the current. The flow was unbearable...i was about to give up and trust hand of no one.

The journey out was the toughest ever, i been test until the final end.. but coming out from those dark tunnel made me a betterment, now i can see the different, im glad..^^

I wud say, it's been a long and winding journey, but finally i'm here tonight, picking up the pieces.. and walking back into the light, Into the sunset of my glory, into Your glory...Allah thanks for your loves and tenderness care.

I think here is where my heart and future lies, There's nothing like the feeling when I look into the eyes,...its been a long journey until here, thinking about the years I spent just passing through, this bring me back to the circle and I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you..^^

Now i found you, .......My dreams came true, My miracle

My 8 yrs old dreams

Dikala hujan yg sejuk ini, teringat kat pakcik ice cream cine yg jual ice cream...
since i was a baby till i was about 7 or 8, i used to live in many place,..dari utara sampailah timur..(i think slatan never goin to be in my fmly next stop list..at that tym lah)

masa kat taman koskam penang 2 i think....it was on a hill, tapi bukan la kat cliff ke ape, rumah tu kalau nak pegi mcm naik bukit sikit. so there was this pakcik ice cream, he had to cycle all the way up to sell his ice cream. those of you who were born in the 80's should know about this, ingat taaak? basikal die pastu ade tong ice cream tu!

my brother n i slalu stop the pakcik utk beli ice cream, pastu nnt i would climb on the tong ice cream, maklumlah pendek, kenela panjat. when the pakcik opens the cover of the tong mesti the mesmerizing smell or shall i say aroma of ice cream travels through my nose, leaving me breathless.

cey cey!! OH!! heaven!! from then on i became the prince of ice cream. usually people would prefer chocolates than ice creams, but for me!! i would prefer ice cream anyday anytime ;)
maka skarang saya bercita2 utk membuka sebuah ice cream company di malaysia.Tp memandangan chocolate pun cam minat jg..then pastu buka lak kilang choc...hahaha tamaknya saya.

doakanlah saya berjaya. sekian wasalam :)

Heart vs Brain..Beauty and the beast of night

Well....hi,

Now im freaky freakishness numb in the morning, ting tong in bahasa pasar.... Subuh harus lah selepas pkul 8 ^^ (Im Sorry God, if i again let u down this time)... all simply bcuz of the mind that still doing his marathon last night. i cant sleep, and juz when the dawn reach the finished lines...i already exhausted in slept, many thing keep wandering and obstacles me in my thought track... i wud prefer call it dilemma, between wish and destined....^^ wow that's a big word haha..demmit

Dilemma always come with a package, Beauty and the beast ^^. This is the part where i hate the most, a situation that that need decision ^^. Of cuz the result is far away to be expected or reached, This all is only know by the play of God, Allah what ever i do, plz make it the right ones ^^. i hope i strong enuf with what ever U have in planned..

BTW...life is beauty mann...why need to worried to ones or even a week of 'cannot sleep' symptom, we still have a lifetime to enjoy the bliss of sleep kan...^^

~ Now off to Sri Damansara....caa ^^

world...., why me?

Ive a confession, Im happy with what im having now, my life, my achievement, thanks for your blist..No doubt im very proud of it, proud to myself..im glad my family proud of who i am..that's quite important to me, i like to see smile on their face..

but on the other side,deep under... personally i feel sorry to my self..i dun want to say disappointed, seems like im out of gratitude but i do feel it...I hate how the lifeline has been crafted, its not fair..

i know, obviously now im away from my rationale thinking..but plzz..juzz 1 night, i juz want to spill out all the hurt im facing thru...why me, i tot im a good servant... a good man

But i think maybe that wasnt enough, Allah...world...plz be nice on me,

im good guy already..i swear, i love everybody..i support everybody...im doing it all kerana Allah,
i do anything for others.. i even put my world into jeopardize as long as others happy with their life..i sacrificed my smile as long other received theirs...yahh im quite aware probably U now testing my honesty..., but this is too harsh for me... im not that strong

God...i've no complained, i juz want to let u know that Im simply juz a normal person, average human being,
Isnt that enough? Honestly even now im still trying to be fair again...if the test on me is not complete, not enough yet..go On...dont stop, my heart still got room to be hurt, tears to be drop... i still can fight ^^ hurt me while u can... but plz promise me...tomorrow will be a better day... the gain is worth the pain..

Terima Kasih

Let open the door for beautiful life

... and let in the day!

A snap of a painting I found in an old magazine

- don't presently recall artist or name of painting

but isn't it inviting?

It's early morning and everything is so still. Not a leaf stirring. Not a bird breaking the silence. The air feels soft and cool on my face as I peer out into the garden. Lovely. somehow predicts a hot one today so I've opened up all the windows to let in some of that delicious fresh air. That should help keep the house cool later on when we close the windows and draw the blinds.

A wispy cloud just catches the light as the sun peers over the horizon. So often I'm reminded of that old psalm: This is the day the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it. Some days when pressures bear down a person has to work a little at being glad for a new day, but this morning brings me a gift where the joy bubbles up easily.

Mmmmm.... The wispy fragrance of coffee and hot buttered toast with marmalade drifts past my nose.... I must follow it.

I'm off to finish unwrapping the gift of this day.

Wishing you joy in the gift of yours too.... Shall I pour coffee now?

The Play of Life

In life, everybody can be Sir Alex Ferguson or either Pep Guardiola,

We got our own roles to play,
Games to steer,
Strategy to design and decide..

In fact we also associated with the club to manage
and tradition to be sustained...

But most of all is how we script players and fands to be orchestrate and poetize it to be come ones, the ones that we hope so... ( ^.^)v

Satisfaction that need you to pay...

i think i can make a conclusion,

we r happy when we buy things,spend your money to get what you want, it is a satisfaction...deeply indescribably feeling of ownership...

In spite of that,
when its come down to the road, u do your math on ur total spending..
suddenly it trigger your sense, "owh God.., what am i doing..."

~haha stupid..but yet, u have to agree, life works that way... ^^

Mengolek tayar sejauh mungkin~

Life is easy, life has its soul...

Being here and now...clutches the nostalgic...
Gear up slightest sheet of memory...

This long journey wont take me away...
As i'll be back to this square...
Traveling cross a far calm me...
running from the confront and conflict
here i hope i find You...
here find me my rooting
May Allah bless us..^^

tayar bergolek sejauh mungkin...~ ^^

Things in my pocket & warkah utk En Polis

Isn`t it weird if I Laugh, rolling at the floor when I got some idea to wrote this things out? Still Not absurd ryt.. HAHAHA…

People always have their own ‘accompany’, ‘tagging’ or what ever do you want to call it.., Whenever they intend to walk away to outside, before the shifting outside. Sure everyone facing some kind of to do list need to be done first..

In my daily routine..juz before off to works,leave the house..Sure there got some common thing that I do and checkbefore rushed to the office and thats thing wud be..:-

Item Location Status

Ok..Car key/Bike key Right pocket (Pant) Checked

Ok then,Cellphone Left pocket (pant) Checked

Watch Left hand (wrist) Checked

Sunway ID lanyard Leher laa.. Juga checked..

Wallet Inside the bag Checked

**(leceh la..xslesa kan klu wallet dlm poket blkg)

Waa..Only then br senang hati maw ke office,sure xde paper yg tertinggal dah neh ^^.. jaaa~(perjalanan mengambil masa 30mins okay..seringkali terfikir..klu la company ni bapak I yg punya..iskk)

Ok, back to the story, since cite pasal apery g ada dlm poket sewaktu keluar dr rumah, so instead of checking apa yg diperlukan masa nk kluar dr rumah..lets check on what im brought back today…~

Item Location Status

Ok…Car key/Bike key Right pocket (Pant) Checked

Ok then, Cellphone Left pocket (pant) Checked

Watch Left hand (wrist) Checked

Sunway ID lanyard Leher masih.. Still checked..

Wallet Inside the bag Checked

** and extra traffic summons Right pocket (pant) dun wan to check..crapp..

Know what, Trimasss en Polis, anda telah Berjaya membuatkan jumlah saman terkumpul minggu ini adalah Rm 400 hengget, Yeayyy…Clap~ Clap~Clap..i luv u lahh, Sayangggglah pada anda semua en. Polis, Anda dan saya mmg setia berkhidmat utk Negara hahaha(cam hampeh)

So utk En Polis, Demi Negara yg terchenta…nie ada warkah untuk en polis~

Dear En Polis,

Terima kasih diatas surat cinta yg diberikan..sy amat menghargainya,

Untuk pengetahuan En.Polis, Berkenaan penekanan en Polis kepada Kelajuan yg dibenarkan dan Kelas CC kenderaan yang boleh melalui lebuhraya, Sy faham sepenuhnya,Tp..saya taw la moto saya xsampai 700 CC, xperlu la diulang byk kali, en polis perli saya ke aper..Yg ada ni pun xhabis lg throttle nk pulas aper..iskk,

Lagi satu, saya xmampu laaa nk pakai BMW ke or Subaru seperti yg en Polis cadangkan..nie en.Polis perli sy lagi kea per, Saya Muda lagi kot..mne nk mampu, infact klu sy pakai..lagi ‘hari raya’ en polis saman sy. Project Engineer xde la byk duet mana sgt seperti yg en Polis bayangkan, skrg muda lg…nnt dah tua br la nk byk sket…time tu en polis nk perli xpe laa..haha

Disampaing semua ini en Polis, Sy senyum kne saman xbererti sy suka disaman, harap en polis faham..”^o^”. Sy cume berbudi bahasa jer…So harapnya jangan la kerap sgt saman sy taw.., saman la setahun skali ke, or klu xyah lnsung lebih baik..

Namun saya sentiasa faham dengan tranggungjawab dan amanat pihak en polis, Tu saman byk2 tu mesti nk wat model Menara Warisan kan, Menara 100 tingkat tu kan…maklumlah..demi Negara mencipta landmark..^^, Br la Org Negara lain taw katne Malaysia nie kan..Harapkan KLCC, SEPANG Circuit, org xtahu sgt..Sy faham sepenuhnya.. Tp enchik Polis, sy baru jer ‘like’ dekat FB, utk tidak menyokong pembinaan Menara 100tingkat tu, jd bermaksud..kalau boleh..sy xnk la saham sy disini..nnt ramai rakyat Malaysia y xsuka sy sbb sy melabur kat bangunan nie..Harap en Polis faham la yer situasi sy..

Akhir kata, Sesama lah kita meningkatkan kemajuan Negara disamping Menuju kearah Ekonomi berpendapatan tinggi..(im expected berpendapatan tinggi yer, wlupun sy xfaham camne korg akan wat)

Wasaalam..

Berkhidmat utk Negara,

‘Mangsa Saman Polis secara kerap’

i'm not EVERY MAN..^o^

I threw my backpack on my bed and rushing down to the kitchen
and fixing myself something to drink. Phewww…..what a hot evening. I could even hear the flowers in my mom’s garden screaming and pleading for some drink too! Hmmmm how hot the day was!

“My Principe: I have many choices in life. When one of the choices
responds negative, I just left it behind! Sayonara. No time to waste for
something that I know I can’t get!!”
Those words keep coming and wandering in my mind. And I know
that whatever it is it was not my fault!! And I will never regret…………. I am
myself, not like ordinary other man. I’M NOT EVERY MAN.

I have my own thought; I am not a dreamer…I will never look back.
For me, I should search for a girl that really understands me.
She must be intelligent, honest, lot of sense of humor, and she doesn’t care what I look like but represents for whom I truly am inside! And one more important thing….. she does not going to blow me off just because she embarrassed..

After finishing the drink, I walked up upstairs. Changing my clothes
and let my hifi banged on. I threw myself on the bed and tried to sleep.
Hmm…. Good. I cant even close my eyes !! urghhh… ok, what
about chatting ? playing computer games? Hmmmm….

Lusa dah nk Raya~ aku masih diofis

Date : 08/09/2010, rabu ,1;20pm
Location : Menara Sunway

well, as assume korg sume dah tahu..lusa raya, wlupun aku berharap khamis jer raya.pasal means esok xyah la dtg kje... ^^V dah penat da keje dlm environment sunyi sepi, minda tiada di tempat kje..aishhh

haha..nk wat mcmna..tekanan memuncak bila xde sorg pun malay yg tinggal melainkan aku yg begitu setia berkhidmat as aku realized ...aku harus berkorban kerana syarikat dan negara sangat memerlukan aku pada ketika ini..~ Demi negara...aku gagahi juga (what the heck..~)

ok lets go to the what been aimed on this coming Raya~
sy MAww...capture 1 gambar indah anak bulan yg bernama Syawal..
(mungkin memerlukan byk shot...tp yg penting kurg2 1 mesti maw cukup lawa)
ehmm..what else,..i guess thats all jer yg bermakna buat saya...owhh terlupe..sy begitu maww melawat kubur arwah opah , tok ayah...dan sume2...n i guess tu je kot...xde permintaan lain dah..tu dah cukup memuaskan hati...

ok back to what is in the present...buat masa skrg nie..sy xde 1pun baju raya. sedihkan...hahahaha \^o^/. Bile sebut xde baju raya doesnt means xde baju nk wat jalan raya...sy xde sume,baju nk wat sembahyang raya,mahupun baju pg jalan2...
bkn sbb sy xde masa nk jln2 or shopping...cume xde yg berkenan dimata sy^^ hahaha(what a stupid)..dan sy pun xth camne nk raya tanpa 1 helai pun baju raya (what a thinking)....siyes...sure awkward kan..xpenah2 xde lnsg..hahaha.tb2 sehelai pun xde kali ni..kah3..aper la yg dibuat slame nie...tp layan jer..bukannyer nk pegi mana pun..hahahah (what a brilliant)..lagi pun...xpe..sy still ada byk lagi baju lawa2 dan cantik2 to be leveled to baju baru korang ^^ hahaha (what a suprise) ...cumenyer xbaru yg betul2 punye baru jer...keh3

and ~ ehm....aahh..ok raya nie sy nk mengurangkan dwet dlm acc sy utk sume2...
mama n abah...ambil2,
Jiha..ambil2...
adik2 yg lain..ambil2...
owh kak chik yg nk pg UK...hmm ambil2...
hmm dwet raya taun nie..budget lebih atas paras normal..ambil2...
what else...aper lg yg ader dlm budget raya nie eh~

owh perbelanjaan blk kg sume2..dont worry...ambil2...
blanja dapur utk 2hari sume cucu2 opah berkumpul pun ...dont worry ambil2...hahaha
hmm...sy rasa cume tinggal 1/5 jer gaji sy utk diteruskan hidup bulan dpn ^o^ ....tp xpe..pasal sy gembira ^^ pahala pun dapat...dan...alaa...xpe...jgn byk tnye..yg penting sy suke wat camni ^___________^ ngeeeeee

so di akhir entry nie sy sebagai org Melayu Nusantara ader sebuah pantun...

" Its been a year,

here its come again,

selamat hari rayear,

maaf zahir batain."

Dont pointing to others when it`s your fault

well, ...huhh..xtually,eventually...hmm nothing produce an exact feelings to gel with the hatred that i juz gone thru, dealing with people who make no mistake 'kononnyer lahh'(feel like to vomit thinking of this kind of people)..but ahh,who cares... need not to kill my whole day n keep content the cool under...xperlu mewujudkan perasaan yg xbest utk org2 yg begitu. sendiri yg buat salah tp cakap org lain yg salah...

come on laa..it still led by ur mistake,stupid..u sets the situation, n now u`re blaming us..owhh come on..(sungguh xsuka prasaan bila sy marah)

sometimes...we makes mistake,no doubt... whether it in our own life or we effecting others life as well...the thing is..we are human..kita ni manusia...mmg xlari dr kesilapan dan kesalahan..
tp..hidup nie..xramai yg prasan yg dier bersalah, mungkin menunding jari lebih senang berbanding mengakui kesalahan.

So, during this weekend..juz when i am trying to please my day from those previous hatred...n when i juz enjoying my offtime in some parks with intention to ease the feeling,get some fresh air...look at the far end of the lake view...n guest what,suddenly my pondering get dispositioned when sorg anak kecil yang menangis kerana kakinya tersandung batu xauh dr tempat saya duduk,dan anak tersebut berlari ke orang tuanya dan berkata "ma,jatuhh...tersandung batu." lalu ibunya menjawab.."diam syg, jahat batu tu..nnt mama marah dier"

n this triggering me back to the spoil attitude that some of us have...
see....knapa harus menyalahi batu..,
ntah bukan nk marah..cume kecewa dgn sikap manusia yg mcm ni

so as motivation and also to remind myself
sbelum menyalahkan org lain...cuba lihat diri sendiri...
budak xjatuh andai dier berhati2, tangan xberbunyi andai xditepuk,
dan last skali...xde raya di syawal klu xde puasa di ramadhan ^^haha

dun know, maybe kita dibesarkan dengan suasana yg kerap menyalahkan org lain, heavy jam di kota kita salahkan kereta depan, beli barang dan kemudiannya rosak kita salahkan brg tak berkualiti,hinggakan andai baju kita terkoyak akibat tersangkut dipagar, bangku dan sebagainya lg pun kita nk salahkan bende lain...teruk kan

so..marilah kite berubah kearah yg lebih baik utk diri sendiri dan masyarakatttt haha (aper aku merepek nihh)

(eh...nie lagi aper yg aku mrepek nih...hahha, tersnap lak kan..haha.. (tb2 ader lak awek depan situ n tersnap lak...haha alasan typical malaysian) xde ah..sje nk menghiburkan hati)



(hahhh...tenangkan..klu tiap2 weekend layan jiwa kat sni)

We hate thing when.....

We hate....when things not working as how we plan it to be...

tambah pulak bila kta dedicate almost we what we could kan...

Hmmm...hidup mesti diteruskan...hopefully tomorrow will create another smile in face ^^
said to myself.....Life is like the circle....^^

Sekolah KAFA Al Wahidah, Taman Bukit Indah, Ampang

Dear all my kind hearted friends, i just got an news about this school....so, i just copy and paste the email here, in fact my brothers studied here. Hope you guys will help as much as you can.

Salam kepada sahabat -sahabat,

Bantuan anda semua amatlah diperlukan bg menyelamatkan seramai 400 org pelajar Sekolah Agama Rakyat (KAFA INTEGRASI) AL WAHIDAH, Taman Bukit Indah Ampang kerana pada masa ini bangunan sekolah mereka sedang dilelong oleh pihak bank berkemungkinan daripada pemilik bangunan tidak mampu membayarnya.

Harga yang ditawarkan adalah RM 550,000 dimana pihak sekolah tidak mempunyai kewangan yang mencukupi untuk membelinya walaupun Pengetua sekolah tersebut sedang mencuba sedaya upaya untuk menyediakan wang yang dikehendaki.

Pihak sekolah diberikan masa selama 6 bulan oleh pihak bank bg menyediakan wang tersebut. Setakat email ini ditulis pada 09/05/2010 pihak sekolah telah berjaya mengumpulkan sebanyak RM 20,000 dan mereka mempunyai masa lebih kurang 5 bulan lagi.

Oleh yang demikian, pihak sekolah sedang menjual saham sebanyak RM50 seunit bagi sesiapa sahaja yang ingin membeli bagi membantu pihak sekolah menyediakan wang yang secukupnya.

Bagi sesiapa yang ingin mendapatkan kepastian mengenai keadaan sebenar, tuan2 dan puan2 bolehlah menghubungi sendiri Pengerusi sekolah tersebut seperti butir2 dibawah.

HJ MOHAMED BIN SAHARUDIN – 0162953756 / 0199476844

Sumbangan tuan2 dan puan2 bolehlah di masukkan kedalam akaun bank seperti dibawah
Akaun : KAFA INTEGRASI AL WAHIDAH
Maybank :: 562209609000

Hulurkan derma ikhlas jika berkemampuan, RM1 dari anda amat besar nilainya…

Mood for traveling is still on....

lately nie..asyik mau jalan2 jer...,
padahal hujung mgu lepas, br jer outing...
xfaham kan...tp..siyes..sy nk lagi,
xjauh lg sy berjalan...xramai lg org yg sy jumpe...xcukup warna warni hidup dilalui
hmm...xpuas lg sy kenal dunia..^^
ader x org sepelik sy ini..haha (stupid question..hahaha)


hmm...perlu tgk dunia yg lain, rutin yg lain...udara yg lain..
guys, rakan2, or sesiapa jer..jom ke mana2..

Let's pack our bags..

Lets pack our bags,
and lie on the easy stream..
feel the water on our backs,
where we can carry on dreaming..
where we can finally, be where we`s like to be..

(Zee Avi, Just you and me)

Kuala Lumpur - 11.54pm

Bandar Melaka - 12pm++ haha....

UTM skudai - 2.30pm

Senibong, Tebrau - 10.00pm dinner time (mengadap singapore)

Special thanks to Abbas,
ang, amer at jb..n my bro kat malacca.. tQ buddy

*** There's still so much in the world that i'd like to soak up with my eyes...
^^

Recently..

Recently..
i juz like thinking nothing n doing nothing...

my brain get stuck as (tony stark)..so does my word...
so Diciptanya Duniaku berada dalam keadaan tanpa kata2 seketika..
needs to go out and breath the world..

Akibat 3 cawan Nescafe Kaw....

Juz went to lelaki seterika smalam, bad luck seakan bermula bila blackout,haha, bayangkan shopping complexs b/o....haha , and end up by sume warga2 yang booking online xdapat ticket.crapp...

so the formation terus bertukar utk menghabiskan masa lepak di stulang and layan seafood food..haha...dan disitulah semuanya bermula....

owh..Nescafe kaw...3 cawan yer....
then hasilnyer....

i cant sleep all night,

i am fully tired but my eyes dont...
Caffeine is killing my night....owh...
i hates being zombie in days....

Simple 9 ; why i have to endure all this...

suffering for the pain and hardships...
the counting which in simple perspective was easy and pleasure...
that square the burden inside...
i am in total tense...

The remaining nine....arghhh

(simple easy life principle cannot be applied here..thank you)
sy tahu ramai yg xfaham..,xp..thanks for ur concern...
anyway...cume melepaskan tekanan...in gud way i believe..^^
wah masih mampu tersenyum...tipulahhhh